Tuesday, July 1, 2008

A happy day, with tears

Mrs. Spit and I attended a wedding last night. As weddings go, it was... well... different. But it was a wedding befitting the bride, who is not exactly conventional.

I was happy for them both, to have found love later in their lives.

And then they played one of my favorite Christian songs, and I cried. Guys really shouldn't cry at weddings, but there I sat, holding Mrs. Spit's hand, tears falling down my cheeks.

The song is "I can only imagine" by MercyMe. It was written in grief about the death of the songwriter's father. It's about what he can only imagine seeing when he gets to heaven and experiences the love and glory of Christ in person.

As I sit here crying, just thinking about it, I think of my son Gabriel, and how - however much I miss him - he is with Christ now. I can only imagine what that must be like. I live for the day that I will join him, but for now, I just mourn his loss and selfishly wish that I had him here with me instead.


Mrs. Spit said...

I know - I hear the song start, and thought "oh no, not this."

Amy said...

That is a beautiful song. I know that Gabriel is in a good place, I just wish, he was in the best place, in my mind that would be with you and Mrs. Spit.

I'm thinking of you and you know what, it just shows that you are truly a good hearted man if you can cry at a wedding!

Reyna said...

thats so sweet.. you know thats a song that gets me every time too

(((O and C)))