Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Tuesday can go spin

This is not me. This is not normal. This isn't even my "new" normal.

I am so pissed off today that words don't describe it. I am angry. I am enraged.

Why? I just am.

Mrs. Spit is talking about starting to try again later this year. Right now, I have no desire to have children anymore. I lost my son. I will never again see Gabriel, and I am angry.


Mrs. Spit said...

I'm sorry. I love you.

Amy said...

I'm sorry. I know this is all just so difficult.

I myself am beyond scared at the thought of trying again but I long so bad to have a baby on earth. My William isn't with us physically, but I do believe he'd want a brother or sister to watch over.

I wish you peace, Mr. Spit! I also send you love and luck for a better week!

J said...

Hi there, just found your blog from SQ&SPJ. Will add you to my list of elusive men.

I am sorry to hear about your loss. I expect you and Mrs will deal with it in different ways at different times. Hang in there.


Ya Chun said...

sorry mr spit.

take a deep breath.

we also set a "think about it" date, in august. sometimes I find myself stressing over it. sometimes its "august is so far away, and we won't have a baby until..." and sometimes it is "omg, it is almost august. i am not ready..."

hang in there